dezzy

Sometimes I feel very sad and have to let it out, so I end up crying myself to
sleep, and have sad dreams. When I wake up, I feel pains,
either emotional or physical. But the problem is, I don’t usually let my
feelings out. I don’t tell my husband what is going on with me.  And I sometimes start to wish I would be with my family back home. I don’t know how I feel. Sometimes I have days where I feel like just
laying in the couch.
I constantly feel so alone,  I used to be really
hyper and happy. I just want to pour
all my emotions out, but I don’t. I feel
like I need to let it all out, but I don’t know how. I  feel so happy when my husband and I are together. Other than that, I’m just feeling down sometimes.
Sometimes, I try to cry, but it’s like some thing’s keeping me. Sometimes, I feel
like the world is keeping me from something. I have a really bad temper now, and
I always get mad to my husband. I’m constantly just slacking or
dozing off thinking of what couldn’t  been. Sometimes, I wanna just write out my
feelings, but I feel all bottled up and I feel like it’s impossible. I really don’t know why I feel this way! I just love
to be alone sometimes.
I really hate myself to be like this. I don’t want to ruin our marriage. I love my husband so very much!

What is this?” just missing my family & friends back home or a PMS?

Have a nice day everyone.
Thanks for reading my life and emotions.

Dezz